I don't know if my title makes any sense, it just popped into my head, sounding so catchy and new. Novelty is still something that I continue to obsess about. I'm over my compulsive habits for like 2 mos now. And I just have to say it feels great! There's really truth in the saying 'Nothing is to be feared, it is only to be understood.' I'm happy I made the decision, it's not as crazy as I thought it would be.
I miss writing and having my thoughts combined in one cohesive whole. Though I feel kinda inadequate and spaced out just now. Writer's block?!.... I don't even know if I'm qualified to be called one. I used to be oozing with self-confidence but now I feel otherwise.
This inkling desire to be famous one day. Yeah I've got the talent, I wanna believe I'm not ugly for people not to enjoy looking at. It's just not enough.... Not enough to take me to places and see the world. Not enough to have people screaming my name out loud.
Beauty is freedom in a deodorant commercial I heard. Money is independence said Catherine Zeta-Jones in her movie opposite George Clooney. Happiness is freedom of the mind something I continue to aspire and struggle for day in, day out of my daily existence. Drudgery, bliss all in one. It's a crazy life out there.
Beauty is my passion....pleasure is my religion!!!!
